365 Questions--August 4

What was the most challenging part of this year for me?

Year 25 has been a very eventful one to say the least. I laughed, I cried, I had ups and down, I started at one job and ended at another. It’s just been a lot going on. But the area that I was most challenged in is choosing my battles. 

By nature, I’m a fighter. It’s just what I do, and it always has been. It doesn’t matter, physically or verbally. I’d go toe to toe with almost anybody (well really anybody if they try me enough) and won’t back down. That’s just how I was raised. I don’t let people talk to me crazy or treat me any type of way without a rebuttal. But in this year, I’ve learned that not everything needs a response. 

Within the last maybe 2 or 3 months of year 25, I was tried to the point where I was willing to risk it all just for a fight. I got so tired of turning the other cheek and trying to be the bigger person. Truth be told, I’m 5’3. It’s rare that I’ll ever be the bigger person. I felt like the fact that I was turning the other cheek over and over was enough. At some point enough is enough. You keep trying me, put your hands up and run me my one. 

For some reason a light went off for me. It wasn’t necessarily choosing which battles to fight, but choosing how to fight each battle. Not each battle requires me putting my hands on people. God know that if I start putting my hands on someone, I’m not going to stop. Once I get to that point, there is no stopping me. Sometimes, just saying something—just one thing is enough. I’m not going to go back and forth with anybody for something dumb. I can leave it to God, which is always the right thing to do. But I do believe that God doesn’t want us to turn away from every thing. If that was the case, He wouldn’t have equipped David to kill Goliath or given Moses the words to say.