365 Questions--August 3

What is something I did this year that I think I will remember for the rest of my life?

Iwould have to say this transition I’m in right now has been very monumental in my life. I mentioned it in a post a couple days ago. I have never had any motivation to work on Briana. I’ve always thought that I was the best version of myself and that the people around me were just bad people. I never considered why I was attracting those bad people and ending up in bad situations. I just felt like people were taking advantage of my heart and who I am as a person. 

A breakup will do that to you sometimes. You get your heart broken bad enough you’ll want something to change. To be honest, I never considered changing anything until the Sunday after my breakup. My pastor prayed for my self-esteem. I couldn’t figure out why he would pray for that of all things, and when I went home I immediately started praying for some type of revelation on why he would pray for that. I didn’t think I was overly confident. In fact, I consider myself to be pretty humble. However, I never felt like I was worth having something good. I was comfortable in being accepted by anybody that would want to love me. 

By realizing that, I was able to dig deep and take the bandage off the things I had been covering my entire life. I was able to be completely vulnerable with myself and with God. I allowed and am still allowing God to have His way because I know this is not what He had in store for me.