365 Questions--March 3
What are you feeling right now?
Honestly, right now I feel vindicated, excited, grateful, and uncomfortable all at the same time. I've been very uneasy about my starting of Young, Saved, and Free. I didn't know if I was in the right place to even be giving lessons like the ones I give in the first place, but I kept doing it. I really had to pray on it because I struggle with some things. I felt like because I know that I struggle, I wasn't worthy of writing content of that context. On the average day maybe 4 to 5 people read my blog, but I have gotten a bunch of IG followers in the last week. No that doesn't make me feel the things that I'm feeling. The reason I feel that way is because I know that I'm truly hearing from God. I know He gives me the ideas for the Bible lesson for the week (I really should come up with a name for those. Y'all give me some suggestions in the comments please 😊). The more I write, I was getting my healing.
I mentioned in a previous blog about how I carry about all of my past hurt with me. I started writing about how people had hurt me, and I felt lighter instantly. A lot of times when things happen to me, I accept what happened an move on. I don't go to that person and curse them out or bust their windows out or anything like that. I block them and keep it moving.
Crazy thing, this past week when I wrote on Love of Enemies, I never thought that I would see God reveal what He revealed to me. I've been through a lot and a lot of people think they can speak on what I've been through. The day I wrote Tuesday's post, I was with some people that were close to me. One of them began speaking very foully of me while on the phone with somebody else. She actually was making fun of the fact that I was diagnosed with PCOS 2 years ago. That is a very sensitive subject for me so I did cry once I calmed down from the rage I initially felt. There was a section in the blog that says :
Honestly, right now I feel vindicated, excited, grateful, and uncomfortable all at the same time. I've been very uneasy about my starting of Young, Saved, and Free. I didn't know if I was in the right place to even be giving lessons like the ones I give in the first place, but I kept doing it. I really had to pray on it because I struggle with some things. I felt like because I know that I struggle, I wasn't worthy of writing content of that context. On the average day maybe 4 to 5 people read my blog, but I have gotten a bunch of IG followers in the last week. No that doesn't make me feel the things that I'm feeling. The reason I feel that way is because I know that I'm truly hearing from God. I know He gives me the ideas for the Bible lesson for the week (I really should come up with a name for those. Y'all give me some suggestions in the comments please 😊). The more I write, I was getting my healing.
I mentioned in a previous blog about how I carry about all of my past hurt with me. I started writing about how people had hurt me, and I felt lighter instantly. A lot of times when things happen to me, I accept what happened an move on. I don't go to that person and curse them out or bust their windows out or anything like that. I block them and keep it moving.
Crazy thing, this past week when I wrote on Love of Enemies, I never thought that I would see God reveal what He revealed to me. I've been through a lot and a lot of people think they can speak on what I've been through. The day I wrote Tuesday's post, I was with some people that were close to me. One of them began speaking very foully of me while on the phone with somebody else. She actually was making fun of the fact that I was diagnosed with PCOS 2 years ago. That is a very sensitive subject for me so I did cry once I calmed down from the rage I initially felt. There was a section in the blog that says :
Somebody could hit the most sensitive of nerves, but you still have to do what God says. We were created to worship Him and give Him glory. The Bible says:
Psalm 37:4 King James Version (KJV)
4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
No matter how much that person may hate on whatever you go on, they cannot deny what God has done for you. But wait---you missed something. He will give you that thing you've been praying about, that you've been fasting about, and that you've been seeking Him for. The glow-up is gonna be so real. God said in His word that He will make your enemies your foot stool, and He meant that. So don't get mad when people talk against you because everything they say, God will do the opposite. Let them count you out. Let them say you aint never going to be nothing, you aint never going nowhere. As long as you put God first, you already know what your outcome will be
My healing from PCOS came and she doesn't even know. I was miraculously healed by God 8 months ago. Literally what I said in the post came to pass. I had no idea that someone so close to me would drag my name the way she was. God did 2 things: He revealed to me who my enemy was and 2 He made them my foot stool. Now how I really really knew I was hearing from God because T.D. Jakes mentioned my topic on his Instagram one day this week and then another time he used the exact story I used in the post, confirming what I wrote. I'm just wondering what else He is going to do since I was obedient.
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