365 Questions--March 19

Pick a Bible verse for the day and free write what it means to you

Lamentations 3:28-30 The Message (MSG)

28-30 When life is heavy and hard to take,
    go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
Bow in prayer. Don’t ask questions:
    Wait for hope to appear.
Don’t run from trouble. Take it full-face.
    The “worst” is never the worst.

This verse is very important to me right now. Honesty, I had never heard this verse before. The other day I posted Lamentations 3:25-27. It's funny that I posted it on Friday of all days. Friday, I went down to St. Petersburg, Florida. For those of you who don't know, pretty much my entire family on my mom's side lives there. Usually, I'm pretty geeked about going and seeing all of my family. Don't get me wrong that's what I was really looking forward to with this trip. However, I was going down there for a funeral. 

My aunt passed away from breast cancer. I don't know about your families, but with my family, whenever someone that was one of the matriarchs or patriarchs of the family dies, it's like opening Pandora's box. My family is a very "sweep it under the rug" type of family. Things happens and it gets swept under the rug by the older generation. So for example, when my granddaddy died almost 6 years ago, all kind of secrets came out. 

So now that my cousins and I are getting older, we are becoming aware of all of this. We were oblivious to it as kids. It kind of put me in a really bad place mentally. I remember crying like really really hard as a kind when it was time for me to leave from down there because I love my family that much. Sometimes I feel like my family won't came back from these secrets or the things that happen. Some of them are life changing. It hurts sometimes to think about it. I just want us to all be able to get together and there's no drama. It's wishful thinking I know. 

In spite of everything that happened this weekend, it's still not the worst thing that can happen even when it's combined with everything else I have going on right now. It's a good thing that I am so busy in this case because it allows me to spend a lot of time to myself. Sometimes that's not always a good thing for me because it makes me want to shy away from the situation all together. However, I should use that time  to reflect, pray, and grow. 

Your life has been
Out of control
You're confused
Don't worry your soul
It will get better

--Hezekiah Walker