365 Questions--February 7

Is your view of love based on fear or is it optimistic

I would like to say that my view of love is optimistic. I love love. I love everything about love. Personally, I thrive when I'm in relationships. I know I'm not the only one that's like that. If you ask someone if they're happy, I can almost guarantee their relationship status will be brought up in their answer. I feel like relationships allow me to be my best self, that is if I'm in a relationship with the right person. I love very hard. I always have. Of course, I've gotten mixed in with the wrong guy before and lost myself, but overall I do better in relationships. Even though I live in a time where love is seen as a joke, I believe there is somebody out there that will love me just as hard and deeply as I love them. People just don't love like they used to. You don't see couples like the Obamas, the Huxtables, or even Uncle Phil and dark skinned Aunt Viv. It just doesn't seem to be a thing anymore. Despite all of that, I want to believe that men are capable of loving. No, I don't believe that all men cheat. I think that maturity of the man determines whether or not he will cheat. 

At the same time, I think there is some fear in how I view love. I want to believe that I can be with someone for the rest of my life, but when I look at my family there really aren't any people who married. The older generation is all married, but there is literally no one in the younger generation that is married, and the oldest is almost 40. That's really discouraging to me. Having successful marriages is not something that is popular in my family. My grandmother has been married several times. My grandfather was married twice. My aunt was married twice. I could go on, but you see? There's a cycle there, and I just don't want to fall into that. Honestly, I'm afraid that I might be alone forever. I truly feel like I am not one of those people God did create to be alone. I guess I overwhelm myself sometimes thinking that I may never be found by that person. Despite all of that, I do believe that I will be found at some point.