365 Questions--January 2
What are you most grateful for?
To be completely honest, I am most grateful that I found God when I did. I was 18 when I gave my life to God the first time. Even though I lived my life like a hell raiser (that's probably an understatement), that initial experience saved my life. The reason I'm grateful for that experience is because it wasn't something I was forced into. I didn't gain my faith because of my parents told me I should believe in God; I gained it because I realized that through all the hell I raised up to that point in my life and even after God still kept me. By the time I was 18, I had been at death's door at least 5 or 6 times, and I don't mean just happening to be somewhere where there was shooting. I mean being shot at, being in the hospital because I almost bled to death, being in car accidents literally inches from killing me. I couldn't understand how someone that I didn't even know would go out of their way for me time after time after time. That time in my life was very vulnerable for me. I was ready to give up on God because of how the church damaged me. Don't get me wrong, I believed in God before then, but it was almost like I was taking Him for granted. But 9/11/2010 changed everything for me. Even though I messed up a lot after that, I was well aware of where my help came and still comes from. Because of that moment, times when I should've lost my mind, I didn't, my body has been miraculously healed from something doctors said would keep me on medication for the rest of my life, favor in new places. None of this is because of my doing. It's God. God and God alone.
"I'm grateful, for all of the
Things You've done, done for me
You've been faithful and merciful
For my sins you, forgave me
Hallelujah, I will sing to You
All the glory, I will give to You
I could never praise You enough"
--J.J. Hairston
To be completely honest, I am most grateful that I found God when I did. I was 18 when I gave my life to God the first time. Even though I lived my life like a hell raiser (that's probably an understatement), that initial experience saved my life. The reason I'm grateful for that experience is because it wasn't something I was forced into. I didn't gain my faith because of my parents told me I should believe in God; I gained it because I realized that through all the hell I raised up to that point in my life and even after God still kept me. By the time I was 18, I had been at death's door at least 5 or 6 times, and I don't mean just happening to be somewhere where there was shooting. I mean being shot at, being in the hospital because I almost bled to death, being in car accidents literally inches from killing me. I couldn't understand how someone that I didn't even know would go out of their way for me time after time after time. That time in my life was very vulnerable for me. I was ready to give up on God because of how the church damaged me. Don't get me wrong, I believed in God before then, but it was almost like I was taking Him for granted. But 9/11/2010 changed everything for me. Even though I messed up a lot after that, I was well aware of where my help came and still comes from. Because of that moment, times when I should've lost my mind, I didn't, my body has been miraculously healed from something doctors said would keep me on medication for the rest of my life, favor in new places. None of this is because of my doing. It's God. God and God alone.
"I'm grateful, for all of the
Things You've done, done for me
You've been faithful and merciful
For my sins you, forgave me
Hallelujah, I will sing to You
All the glory, I will give to You
I could never praise You enough"
--J.J. Hairston
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