I Won't Shut Up
Last week, I touched on this just a little bit last week when I discussed my PCOS story. God really had me hone in on that particular part of what I wrote, and I started to think...tell the story.
For a long time, I kept what God did for me to myself. I can remember being in college and not having a dime. I literally had no way to eat. Like nothing...So one day I was on campus working, and a friend of an associate (Yes, the person that connected us wasn't even a friend) says "come with me." I had no idea where we were going, but we ended up at Chick Fil A because she had Blazer bucks she needed to use by the end of the semester. She looks at me and says "Get what you want." This girl didn't know me from a can of paint, but she was meeting a need that she didn't even know I had.
I never spoke a word about that day. I rejoiced silently. I thought some more about my life, and I thought about how many things that God did for me, and I never said a thing about it. The time He paid my rent, the time He stopped the car from killing me, the time He healed my heart...All of these things God did for me, and I never spoke about it. If I'm honest, I've only really spoken about my PCOS story a handful of times if that.
Am I the only person like that? I have silent struggles but these public praises that no one ever understands. I'm one of those people who hates to complain about what's going on in my life. Back in October, I went home for church anniversary, and Prophet Todd Hall was there. He prophesied to me and in the midst of doing that he said some things about my past dealings with people and how I've had a lot of fake friends, a lot of fake love around me, and a lot of abusive people. I looked up and people's mouths dropped open. I was an active member of C.O.P. for years and most people if not everybody had no clue what I was going through when I walked out of those doors every Sunday after service.
But what I've realized is we are doing God a disservice by keeping our story to ourselves. As I'm typing this, I've realized I've talked about this slightly during the #MidWeekPush (every Wednesday at 12:15 EST on IG Live @youngsavedandfree). We're doing Kingdom Business!
I recently started a business, and literally all of my clients came from word of mouth. In Kingdom Business, our goal is to increase the kingdom of God. What better way than to tell your story?
As followers of Christ, we were created to give God praise.
Praise means to speak well of. And I mean in all honesty, if He's been that good to you why wouldn't you want to tell everybody?The Bible says
Everybody is on Youtube and Instagram ranting and raving about Fashion Nova, and now the company has skyrocketed. You know how many people get mad with the blogs, like The Shade Room, for always posting Fashion Nova ads? Like people, be BIG mad every time they post a Fashion Nova ad.
But why can't we have the same mentality when it comes to God? God has been too good!
I've gotten to a place now where I don't care who don't wanna hear (I said what I said) it. Nobody will shut up my praise! There's a scripture that says the rocks will cry out. Now if the rocks can cry out and they literally are on the ground all day...They're not even a living thing. They'll never know what it's like to see death's door, but their life be saved. They'll never know what it's like to feel like you're losing your mind, but God regulates your mind. They'll never have an almost but God. Surely if the rocks can cry out, and after everything I've been through in my 27 years of living, surely I have something to tell people about. When you've been through what I've been through and lived the life I've lived, you'd give God praise too.
In Mark 5, we find the story of the man in the tombs.
Listen, if I would've just seen everything that took place in this story, I would've told it. Don't read this and say "mmm wouldn't be me," because all of us have gotten on the phone on ran your mouth about something that you heard. I'm not here to condemn anybody, but let's just be real--we've all done it. But imagine if you were the one that actually experienced it. You wouldn't be able to shut me up.
I remember years ago, I had a dream of me preaching. For one, it just did not appeal to me. I've never seen myself as anybody's preacher. I'm a more behind the scenes type of person. I get stuff done. Nevertheless, I've had multiple dreams about me preaching, but that's neither here nor there. But this particular dream, I specifically remember hearing myself say "I almost lost my mind out there in the world, but God kept me so yes, I'll gladly lose my mind in Him."
That's exactly what I mean. Being able to tell your story and tell how God changed what you thought was going to be the narrative pleases him. It pleases Him because we are doing what we were created to do. We were made to give Him glory. Because I am so grateful for what He did for me and because I love Him so much, I won't stop talking about Him. I won't stop telling people all about Him.
Have you ever met someone that was new in love? It's almost disgusting how much they talk about their significant other. Ladies, we are the worst. Yes, I said it. I remember when my first love and I were newly in a relationship. I was 16, and I literally couldn't go 5 minutes without talking to him. Bae this and bae that (Yes, I was saying bae before it was a thing). I was so in love with that man. Everything that came out my mouth was about Jay. I remember one time somebody said something about wearing a green shirt somewhere, and my immediate response was "Jay's eyes are green." Like whhhhhhyyyyy😂😂😂
I know my friends were sick of me because I literally would not shut up. I was always talking about him because he was what I thought was an answered prayer. He was everything I wanted at that time in a boyfriend.
Why can't we be like that with God? Why can't we give Him everything we have? It belongs to Him anyway. What if He decided to undo everything He had already done? That would the most depressing thing ever. I can't even begin to imagine what that would feel like, but because He has not decided to do that, I won't shut up. I won't stop praising. I won't stop dancing.
John 5:31-36 New Living Translation (NLT)
Witnesses to Jesus
31 “If I were to testify on my own behalf, my testimony would not be valid. 32 But someone else is also testifying about me, and I assure you that everything he says about me is true. 33 In fact, you sent investigators to listen to John the Baptist, and his testimony about me was true. 34 Of course, I have no need of human witnesses, but I say these things so you might be saved. 35 John was like a burning and shining lamp, and you were excited for a while about his message. 36 But I have a greater witness than John—my teachings and my miracles. The Father gave me these works to accomplish, and they prove that he sent me.
For a long time, I kept what God did for me to myself. I can remember being in college and not having a dime. I literally had no way to eat. Like nothing...So one day I was on campus working, and a friend of an associate (Yes, the person that connected us wasn't even a friend) says "come with me." I had no idea where we were going, but we ended up at Chick Fil A because she had Blazer bucks she needed to use by the end of the semester. She looks at me and says "Get what you want." This girl didn't know me from a can of paint, but she was meeting a need that she didn't even know I had.
I never spoke a word about that day. I rejoiced silently. I thought some more about my life, and I thought about how many things that God did for me, and I never said a thing about it. The time He paid my rent, the time He stopped the car from killing me, the time He healed my heart...All of these things God did for me, and I never spoke about it. If I'm honest, I've only really spoken about my PCOS story a handful of times if that.
Am I the only person like that? I have silent struggles but these public praises that no one ever understands. I'm one of those people who hates to complain about what's going on in my life. Back in October, I went home for church anniversary, and Prophet Todd Hall was there. He prophesied to me and in the midst of doing that he said some things about my past dealings with people and how I've had a lot of fake friends, a lot of fake love around me, and a lot of abusive people. I looked up and people's mouths dropped open. I was an active member of C.O.P. for years and most people if not everybody had no clue what I was going through when I walked out of those doors every Sunday after service.
But what I've realized is we are doing God a disservice by keeping our story to ourselves. As I'm typing this, I've realized I've talked about this slightly during the #MidWeekPush (every Wednesday at 12:15 EST on IG Live @youngsavedandfree). We're doing Kingdom Business!
I recently started a business, and literally all of my clients came from word of mouth. In Kingdom Business, our goal is to increase the kingdom of God. What better way than to tell your story?
As followers of Christ, we were created to give God praise.
Isaiah 43:21 New Living Translation (NLT)
21 I have made Israel for myself,
and they will someday honor me before the whole world.
and they will someday honor me before the whole world.
Praise means to speak well of. And I mean in all honesty, if He's been that good to you why wouldn't you want to tell everybody?The Bible says
Psalm 150:2 King James Version (KJV)
2 Praise him for his mighty acts: praise him according to his excellent greatness.
Everybody is on Youtube and Instagram ranting and raving about Fashion Nova, and now the company has skyrocketed. You know how many people get mad with the blogs, like The Shade Room, for always posting Fashion Nova ads? Like people, be BIG mad every time they post a Fashion Nova ad.
But why can't we have the same mentality when it comes to God? God has been too good!
Exodus 15:2 New Living Translation (NLT)
2 The Lord is my strength and my song;
he has given me victory.
This is my God, and I will praise him—
my father’s God, and I will exalt him!
he has given me victory.
This is my God, and I will praise him—
my father’s God, and I will exalt him!
Deuteronomy 10:21 New Living Translation (NLT)
21 He alone is your God, the only one who is worthy of your praise, the one who has done these mighty miracles that you have seen with your own eyes.
I've gotten to a place now where I don't care who don't wanna hear (I said what I said) it. Nobody will shut up my praise! There's a scripture that says the rocks will cry out. Now if the rocks can cry out and they literally are on the ground all day...They're not even a living thing. They'll never know what it's like to see death's door, but their life be saved. They'll never know what it's like to feel like you're losing your mind, but God regulates your mind. They'll never have an almost but God. Surely if the rocks can cry out, and after everything I've been through in my 27 years of living, surely I have something to tell people about. When you've been through what I've been through and lived the life I've lived, you'd give God praise too.
In Mark 5, we find the story of the man in the tombs.
Mark 5:1-20 New Living Translation (NLT)
Jesus Heals a Demon-Possessed Man
5 So they arrived at the other side of the lake, in the region of the Gerasenes.[a] 2 When Jesus climbed out of the boat, a man possessed by an evil[b] spirit came out from the tombs to meet him. 3 This man lived in the burial caves and could no longer be restrained, even with a chain. 4 Whenever he was put into chains and shackles—as he often was—he snapped the chains from his wrists and smashed the shackles. No one was strong enough to subdue him. 5 Day and night he wandered among the burial caves and in the hills, howling and cutting himself with sharp stones.
6 When Jesus was still some distance away, the man saw him, ran to meet him, and bowed low before him. 7 With a shriek, he screamed, “Why are you interfering with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? In the name of God, I beg you, don’t torture me!” 8 For Jesus had already said to the spirit, “Come out of the man, you evil spirit.”
9 Then Jesus demanded, “What is your name?”
And he replied, “My name is Legion, because there are many of us inside this man.” 10 Then the evil spirits begged him again and again not to send them to some distant place.
11 There happened to be a large herd of pigs feeding on the hillside nearby. 12 “Send us into those pigs,” the spirits begged. “Let us enter them.”
13 So Jesus gave them permission. The evil spirits came out of the man and entered the pigs, and the entire herd of about 2,000 pigs plunged down the steep hillside into the lake and drowned in the water.
14 The herdsmen fled to the nearby town and the surrounding countryside, spreading the news as they ran. People rushed out to see what had happened. 15 A crowd soon gathered around Jesus, and they saw the man who had been possessed by the legion of demons. He was sitting there fully clothed and perfectly sane, and they were all afraid. 16 Then those who had seen what happened told the others about the demon-possessed man and the pigs. 17 And the crowd began pleading with Jesus to go away and leave them alone.
18 As Jesus was getting into the boat, the man who had been demon possessed begged to go with him. 19 But Jesus said, “No, go home to your family, and tell them everything the Lord has done for you and how merciful he has been.” 20 So the man started off to visit the Ten Towns[c] of that region and began to proclaim the great things Jesus had done for him; and everyone was amazed at what he told them.
Listen, if I would've just seen everything that took place in this story, I would've told it. Don't read this and say "mmm wouldn't be me," because all of us have gotten on the phone on ran your mouth about something that you heard. I'm not here to condemn anybody, but let's just be real--we've all done it. But imagine if you were the one that actually experienced it. You wouldn't be able to shut me up.
I remember years ago, I had a dream of me preaching. For one, it just did not appeal to me. I've never seen myself as anybody's preacher. I'm a more behind the scenes type of person. I get stuff done. Nevertheless, I've had multiple dreams about me preaching, but that's neither here nor there. But this particular dream, I specifically remember hearing myself say "I almost lost my mind out there in the world, but God kept me so yes, I'll gladly lose my mind in Him."
That's exactly what I mean. Being able to tell your story and tell how God changed what you thought was going to be the narrative pleases him. It pleases Him because we are doing what we were created to do. We were made to give Him glory. Because I am so grateful for what He did for me and because I love Him so much, I won't stop talking about Him. I won't stop telling people all about Him.
Have you ever met someone that was new in love? It's almost disgusting how much they talk about their significant other. Ladies, we are the worst. Yes, I said it. I remember when my first love and I were newly in a relationship. I was 16, and I literally couldn't go 5 minutes without talking to him. Bae this and bae that (Yes, I was saying bae before it was a thing). I was so in love with that man. Everything that came out my mouth was about Jay. I remember one time somebody said something about wearing a green shirt somewhere, and my immediate response was "Jay's eyes are green." Like whhhhhhyyyyy😂😂😂
I know my friends were sick of me because I literally would not shut up. I was always talking about him because he was what I thought was an answered prayer. He was everything I wanted at that time in a boyfriend.
Why can't we be like that with God? Why can't we give Him everything we have? It belongs to Him anyway. What if He decided to undo everything He had already done? That would the most depressing thing ever. I can't even begin to imagine what that would feel like, but because He has not decided to do that, I won't shut up. I won't stop praising. I won't stop dancing.
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