365 Questions--August 12

What is something was hard for me at the start of the year but it is easy now?

There’s two things that kinda go hand in hand: loving myself first and walking away from people. I had a big problem with loving myself first. It’s just in my personality to put everyone before me. I don’t really know what to call it, but it’s like that mom thing. I want to make sure everybody is okay before I do anything for myself. This time last year, I was literally running myself into the ground for my boyfriend at the time. He had wrongfully gone to jail, and as a result, he lost a lot of his possessions. I had been uneasy about the relationship for quite some time but I stayed because he was going through some things and so was I. Not only that, I had known him half my life. I knew that when I started dating him that I was putting our friendship at risk and I didn’t want to do that. So I allowed myself to keep getting hurt by someone because I loved him, but he didn’t love me the same way. When the relationship ended, it hurt me. I had never felt that kind of hurt before in my life, but I had to learn to love myself enough to be okay with walking away from someone who didn’t mean me any good.