365 Questions--May 6
Why do these things trigger you?
Honestly, betrayal bothers me so much because I know that I am a very private person and I am very closed off to people. If I open up to you, it's a big deal. I take friendships very seriously. This may be because of my military background. I grew up in a time where everybody didn't have cell phones and social media. I would be best friends with someone for 3 years and then one of us moves away. I have a thing about being taken for granted. That may be the root cause. I know I have a lot to offer and my heart is so big. Sometimes I just want to be accepted. When I say accepted I don't mean changing who I am for someone else's approval. I want who I am to be enough. I just want to be good enough.
As far as people trying to harp me because of the choices I made. that bothers me for the simple fact that this is my life. For a long time, I based my decisions on other people. I went to the middle/high school I went to to make my parents happy. I chose my college because my parents insisted I go there. I went to my first church as an adult to please my aunt. I moved to Tallahassee because it was convenient. I came back home for one I didn't really have a choice and 2 my parents asked me to. I enjoy being able to say I made a decision for me. In the case of me saying I left my old church and I am now COGIC. That was a decision I made for me and not for anyone else.
Honestly, betrayal bothers me so much because I know that I am a very private person and I am very closed off to people. If I open up to you, it's a big deal. I take friendships very seriously. This may be because of my military background. I grew up in a time where everybody didn't have cell phones and social media. I would be best friends with someone for 3 years and then one of us moves away. I have a thing about being taken for granted. That may be the root cause. I know I have a lot to offer and my heart is so big. Sometimes I just want to be accepted. When I say accepted I don't mean changing who I am for someone else's approval. I want who I am to be enough. I just want to be good enough.
As far as people trying to harp me because of the choices I made. that bothers me for the simple fact that this is my life. For a long time, I based my decisions on other people. I went to the middle/high school I went to to make my parents happy. I chose my college because my parents insisted I go there. I went to my first church as an adult to please my aunt. I moved to Tallahassee because it was convenient. I came back home for one I didn't really have a choice and 2 my parents asked me to. I enjoy being able to say I made a decision for me. In the case of me saying I left my old church and I am now COGIC. That was a decision I made for me and not for anyone else.
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